The new moon tonight is told to symbolise "our feelings of Home, safety, our conditionings from childhood, our capability of intimacy. I reread this now in the colorful and lovely banualagoz.blogspot.com as I entered home and plugged in my computer.
I was late for the class(I was there towards the end) but did not miss at least, Banu's special New Moon course of Kundalini Yoga. The affection and the light of Banu embelished the evening. The united force of the participants was heard, their souls together formed this undescribable magnetic field. In my belated first kundalini yoga class, I was between mockery, maze, awe, admiration, peace, purification and lately tears when it came to pour the water behind and receive the new waters of the river.
Two days ago, I decided to stop playing the music I was bored with, embrace my lesson and get ready for the new day and hear the new songs played.
This afternoon, I met Leyla in my sister's new restaurant and was amazed by her energy. Especially her unexpected way of grabbing people passing by. Her energy to catch "now" and her pleasure of tasting the fusillini pasta.
The yoga class ended singing all together May the Long Time Sun; once for the ones we were leaving behind(tears), once for our "now" and third and last one for our wishes:
"May the long time Sun shine upon you,
All love surround you
And the pure light within you
Guide your way home."
And I have to leave you behind, you that I wrote posts for, in the hope of creating a body of this absence.
May the pure light within you, guide your way home, because I couldn't.
I have a new day tomorrow. As blue as Leyla's eyes.
And I have my arms. My healthy arms.